greenery


this is the plant dawn gave me.


and this is what the folks at work got me.

flowers definately aleaves any grumpy feelings towards my job, at least for awhile, anyway.

stuff
the pressure has calmed down some at work. thank you for prayers and thank you, God!

the food show was last week. it went smoothly, i thought. they had me working a booth. that was odd. i made out like bandit with free samples, though. however, i was not as bad as some of the customers...they would have 2 bags or more just full of whatever items they could put in it. 0.o
at least i wait until the show is over before i try to raid the booths.
one poor lady had an entire display of candles taken from her booth!

i'm working on designing a purchase order at work now, when i'm not working on the invoice. who know's when we'll resume work on the pricebook.

and it's administrative professional's day at work, formerly secretary's day. i was presented with a cute plant from dawn, a bouquet from the company and a little gift bag full of goodies from my boss, linda. so that's cool 8^)

when i signed into blogger, i was asked if i wanted to beta test google's new e-mail. while i've heard some controversy over the way google searches the contents of it's mail for better ad placement, 1 gig of space isn't something to shake a stick at either. so i'm trying it. if any real life friends wish to send something to me at that account, please contact me on my yahoo account first so i can send the new addy to you.

frustration

by now i would expect the folks at work to know that i can meet a deadline, but since the big boss wants this invoice redesign to be live by the time our new computer system goes live, i get pressured. he's got my immediate supervisor on my case and today it's really grating on my nerves.

right now, most of what i need to do has me waiting to hear back from computer programmers from two different companies before i can make progress. o.0 when i get bored, i try to find another project to do, only to get nagged at that i should put that down and work on the invoice, the one project where i can't make progress until i hear from other people. it's enough to make me go postal, (but i won't. i need the rent money.)

someone there though must have sympathy for she showed me a classified for a local graphic design position. if i get a job offer and it at least matches what i am currently earning, i'll take it. no second thoughts, no regrets. i'll be working on the resume tonight.
need i also mention that i haven't had a raise in pay since that first 90 day trial period when i first started 2 years ago...*grrr*

i've had it up to here with someone at work thinking they gotta hold my hand to get a deadline met after i've been here for two years and have yet, to my knowledge, to miss a deadline.

scratch that

now, i have seen everything.
i was doing some research on google for work and i noticed all the new stuff they recently added. like a language translator and google in different languages, including...pig latin, klingon, elmer fudd and bork bork bork? (think swedish chef) 0.o

the elmer one is pretty funny and is my fav so far.

ascii
because of this, i have now seen everything. thanks, ken.

con report
is now online at my blue canary blog. Thanks again to jo for helping me to get the posts to show.

the con was great fun. i enjoyed myself.
after the con, ken and i went to the art center and i finally purchased an art desk! 8^D
afterward, it was dinner at the chinese/vietnamese resturant, pho hoa binh (pronounced foe wah ben.) good food! first time i've ever had general tso's shrimp. i want to go back and try their phos (soups.)

fun event and web design woes
i'm going to MidsouthCon tomorrow. i'll post a con report on my new Blue Canary blog...if i can get it to actually show the posts, that is.

in the meantime, that blog's new design is up. thanks to jo for the lovely job of design and coding. i think i'm the only person i know who art directed their own blog (or blogs, jo's working on my other two, also.)

i made some progress with Blue Canary's new site design. i loaded it tuesday and messed it up worse, but now the correct design is up and most of the images are showing on the main page. i still believe the archives are down and i know the other section sof the site are...don't know why, though. guess i need to look over the code again. hopefully, ken can look it over tonight and work out a few bugs.

mural
i never posted my latest post-it note mural. i did this back in september. enjoy.

movie
mom and i saw "passion of the christ" last night.
some things made me think, some things made me wonder about why gibson chose that specific imagery and through it all, i thought, "how much abuse can one person take?" I almost couldn't stand to watch the beatings...

is it a truly accurate portrayal of what really happened?
dunno. no one can possibly be know now...all that saw it are long gone, and the bible has lost things in translations from greek,latin and hebrew so that some meanings are lost and some meanings manipulated by our fellow men to cement their grip on power.

it does make me think.
like, if God knew what was going to happen before he made Adam and Eve, then that means that Judas was condemned before he was even born. What happened to free will?
Did God harden Judas' heart like He harden Pharaoh's during Moses' time? and if He did, isn't that meddling with the free will He gave us? Part of me wants to yell, "that's not fair," but since free will entered the picture, life is not fair. Free will is why bad things happen to good people.

religion isn't supposed to be easy, isn't supposed to be cut & dry, simple to understand & follow. i believe, and anyone is welcome to disagree with me, that we were given free will so that we would come to God and learn to love him by our choice and not because God made us to. I believe, that to Him, and i realize that since He's God, i can't really guess what He's thinking, but...I believe that to Him, if he had made us where we automatically worshiped and loved him, that it would not be real love and that would be an anathema. Love has to be given freely and therefore, we have free will and all the troubles and sorrows it has caused.

i spoke with ken after the movie. he gave me a few points to consider...

I guess this just exacerbates my existing confusion on religion. Oh, don't get me wrong, I have most of the Basic Christian beliefs, the virgin birth, the resurrection, etc., but how can i trust religion, any religion, when men have perverted it to serves their purposes, to keep them in power, to make others believe things their way...
it makes me think.

i'm going to let the movie and these ideas percolate through my head for some time. it seems that i need to seek for God in other ways. Prayers to help me find my direction would be appreciated.

passing the time on friday night...


Which Rock Chick Are You?

jo ended up being tori amos. i'm so jealous. but i like bjork, too.