he's still there...
cleaning up my room a bit and found some letter magnets. ya know the type;
used to be on the fridge of my apartment. ken and i would move them about randomly.

when ken was still going to school in oklahoma (aug '04-aug '05) he had come home during a holiday. can't remember which one. maybe spring break. the night before he had to drive back, he stayed late with me. very sweet and romantic. i was asleep when he left. i think i groggily remember him saying he needed to get ready to go, asking if it was ok to drink some of my milk (it always was,) and to kiss me goodbye before he left.

that morning, when he was already well on the road, i awoke and stumbled into my bathroom. it had a vintage-type medicine cabinet/mirror. attached to the metal rim on the bottom were magnets that read" i lqve u."
he placed the "q" upside down to form the "o," which was missing from the pack when i bought it.
it was one of the sweetest and simplest things. it stayed on my mirror until i had to move back to dad's around the end of october last year. i just couldn't take it down.

last night, i visited with my friend alice. i helped her unpack and move some things around so she can get her sewing room in order and get back to being creative herself. she collects among other things, daredevil toys, toy sewing machines and irons, including toy ironing boards. she had taken one and hung it on the wall to display some art trading cards style magnets she received in a swap. she gave me a toy ironing board, too. if i can find something with which to hang it, it'll be up in my room tonight. the first magnets to go on it will be those letter magnets ken left for me. painful, but sweet reminders of what i had and lost...reminding me that i had found something truly special.

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